What to write about?

Hmm, I'm not really sure what to write about for this particular blog . . . I guess I could write about life. :)

In a word, my life right now is overwhelming. Mostly because I'm so incredibly tired from the pregnancy. It's hard to keep up with just the daily stuff of getting up and getting dressed and focusing on what I need to accomplish for the day, whatever task is at hand. I have been cutting things out of my life very slowly. My hours at the Red Cross every week are getting shorter and shorter and I told Susan, the Community Disaster Education Coordinator, that I may not be able to come back until after I have Sophie. The great thing is that everyone at the Red Cross that I work with is very supportive and understanding. Of course, I only go up there for a half day per week anyway.

I find it very hard to say no to things. It's really hard to go through this season of my life. There is so much that I want to sign up for too. For example, PWOC (Protestant Woman of the Chapel) is having board elections in May, and I would really love to serve on the board, but I know that I have to wait. How long I have to wait, I'm not sure . . . and there's a retreat coming up that I would love to sign up for to help out and serve the other laides, but it is scheduled for within a few weeks after Sophie will be born, so I know it is unrealistic to sign up. And there's activities and events at church that I would like to participate in, but again, I can't. For example, because I'm on pelvic rest and am on doctors orders not to stand for a long time or pick up heavy objects, I can't help out in the nursery (which is expected of all parents, at least one Sunday every three months.) It's just frustrating that my health keeps me from doing things that I want to.

I do know though, that it is just a season and perhaps my time to do these things will come eventually. In the meantime, I should be focusing on things that I can do at home. For example, extra Bible study or working on my Recipe Book that I started last fall.

In summary, it's just hard to live with two opposing thoughts and attitudes living inside you at the same time.